Another year, another chance. This year has brought me more blessings than challenges and I am truly grateful for that. One, I’ve developed new friendships, real keepers. Two, I’ve been to places I thought I never could. Three, I’ve learned to set boundaries with some people. Four, I’ve learned new skills and hobbies to begin with this year.
Throughout the years, it’s been my pleasure to listen to other people though there might be times I find it draining due to my highly sensitive nature. I care for people so much that I forget to consider my own needs. And I’ve also met people who have the same characteristics like mine. Friendships are meaningful for me, yet, I do give that “door slam” when boundaries are breached. I am the type of friend who will tell you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear. It’s never my intention to hurt anyone, but I’m here to tell you if there’s something wrong, and correct you so that you will grow. But of course, that’s just my side of the coin.
Traveling has been my go-to decompression mechanisms when I get overwhelmed with things. Some of my close friends say maybe this is part of me escaping but not really. It’s really good to get away from cluttered, disorganized city sometimes. This year I got involved in a volunteer program regarding marine mammals and it was one of the highlights really of my 2018. I’ve met wonderful people with the same advocacy, different personalities and leadership styles. And it never stopped there. These people I’ve met, we’re still in constant communication not just about the advocacy we are concerned of, but more of personal interactions. And I find it really heartwarming to know that there are people out there who go the extra mile even if you just met them within few weeks time. Also, I’ve learned to become more open and vocal about how I really feel. This experience helped me to learn when to say yes and no and I believe that is very important when it comes to dealing with people. Communication is key.
As I’ve said earlier being a highly sensitive person and an empath, I have the tendency to absorb other people’s energy so I am being careful with who I accompany with. Sometimes it’s hard to distinguish your own feelings and others. But I am learning my way to really determine what’s mine or not. It’s really liberating knowing that I am not responsible for others all the time, and no need to rescue everyone. There’s always wisdom in saying “no” to things.
Mountain climbing – it’s Lake Holon this time and boy, I must say, I really need to prepare better next time. The view was wonderful. When I reached the crater, all of my efforts were worth it. Plus, it was spent with good friends.
Swimming deeper into the ocean was never in my vocabulary. I was just always in my comfort zone, just on the shore. But I’ve got to take this chance to try something. Freediving and Scubadiving. Yes. A non-swimmer like me tried it and it was fun. Thanks to a dear friend that I met from a volunteer before who was into freediving as well and it encouraged me to try it. At first, I still get scared in the water but eventually I had to face my fears. For how many tries, I have successfully duck dived and reached at least 5 meters underwater. It was really exhilarating, scary but fun all at the same time. And I wanted to do it again.
As I approach the thirties, I’ve also promised to take care of myself more. This goes along with saying “no” to others. Taking decisions with wisdom is crucial at this stage. Deactivating from my social media account helped me a lot as well to properly process my thoughts. This world can be overwhelming at times and being comfortable with yourself can be one of the most liberating things to do. This year, I promise to be careful with my thoughts, and filter what goes in and out of it. Also, surrounding myself with people who will build me up and encourage me more to do far greater things and not settle for anything less.
As for my heart, it may need some rest for now. It’s been on my sleeve for quite some time and I know, I fully deserve the best.
Dear 2019, I am so ready for you. I am looking forward to more adventures, challenges and new people to meet. I’ll come out stronger, bolder yet calmer in the midst of all these waves. It was never about me this year. Thank you God, for always sustaining me and providing for me. All glory to you alone.